A lot of things happened to me during the weekend. First, I need to conquer my fear of going to the hospital to have a blood transfusion. I had a disease called menorrhagia, which is in layman's term is called "heavy menstrual bleeding". I had this disease since I was 11 yrs. old, since I started my monthly period. I will have menstrual bleeding for almost 2 weeks and the most is a month. Last week, I just have a two weeks bleeding and I lost a lot of blood. The irony of this is that I have a phobia with blood. Tomorrow, I will go to the hospital and will have the blood transfusion. I am really afraid....really..really..afraid. Then, I will have an operation, it's called D&C "dilation and curretage". My endometrium is really thick and two years ago, I had also a D&C. It's really scary, especially for me since I am still a virgin and it is usually done for women who had miscarried. But then, I also have hormonal imbalance. My blood clots especially during stress. A lot of people adviced me to get married in order to balance my hormones but what they don't know is that I don't know if I will marry. I am a cynic when it comes to marriage.
So much for the bad things, at least I have a good thing coming for me. I had been accepted a job in Malta, a country in the Southern Europe. I am looking forward to go there and start a new life. Maybe, learn to be happy and have a semblance of peace.
